haah so fun .. actually.. nothing much to do.. either just need to forcus.. cause all the item in there
cost. alot as much as i expected.. hahha
so must be super careful..
ermERmm.
hHAHA someone promise will chat with me.. before i leave home.. or when i leave home.. company me.. to chat.. but never Wor..=(( hahha
but i understand why.. cause at night she told cause i blog too early... then make her heart feel itch... want to know.. what actually happen today when i outside.. and what i like to say.. kekek
" BAby is ok i never blame,
You cause i know DEEPDEEP in your heart,
You REAlly CARe ABout me. "but i am happy..
how much i did the past few day..
i know.. how much all this mean to you.
and ME..
but deep deep in my HEARt..
MEAn EVEn More DEepDEep inside..
How much i treasure You..
=X
i know.. how much all this mean to you.
and ME..
but deep deep in my HEARt..
MEAn EVEn More DEepDEep inside..
How much i treasure You..
=X
After that.. i on the way to Work at.. the TRain she finally Sms me.. keke i like.. haha So Happy.. keke
can`t wait to Listen Her Voice too.. haha..
but.. i hear a sad news.. which i so worry.. i was about to leave the place.. go over.. bring go see doctor.. cause.. she say she stomach REAlly Pain...
at that point i really REAlly Worry.. i can`t control myself.. then she say.. it ok it ok.. then
i Cannot say much either.. cause have work.. to do.. then.. finally.. my boss here.. no choice.. but go do my things... then i was trying Hard Hard faster faster set Up Everything
so i could have time to msg.. her..company her..
but... end up.. when i have alittle time.. i msg her.. she told me.. she went.. out.. then is like... at
that moment i am ABit Angry and Worry...
it like.. she having Stomach pain just now.. then now.. at outside.. what reaction can i give... but.. i
dun want to say her anything yet she what would she say... so i just asked..her how You feeling.. now.. then she say okok.. nth wrong le.. go Out With Friend.. and other.. so i like.. ok ba.but in my heart still worry about it.. but must take .. cause i really really.. worry.. about.you. so hope you really understand at this point.... then after that i back to busy again..
till about evening i went to eAT.. for dinner... with my lady boss.. then.. eat at far east..
i eat as fast as possible.. so i could call her.. to chat awhile... then meanwhile.. waiting for lady boss buy KFC for Boss de dinner...
DA BAO..
lols.. Boss onli WAnt MACdonald.. but raining lei.. lols.. too bad so.. we get KFC instead of MAc..
so when i was calling.. her.. is like.. no ans totally..
i guess today i call her at least 5 time.. each time.. all never listen.. okok understand maybe because cannot feel the vibrate... so i like
ok i understand.. but sometime.. i still worry about her tot what would happen.. of cause i will like.. reply another.. msg to check is she ok ma.. cause.. in case cannot feel the vibrate... so is like..
i keep sms.. then got some reply back.i feel much release.. as in.. feel better.. knowing she safe and sound....
after that.. le.. okok le... then is like i msg to her i guess she really take very long to reply.. so some how i fall asleep behind the DJ... till she msg.. then is like.. she suddenly say i have just smoke finish? is like.. Huh
i tot she say told me she not smoking le..
then after that.. next sms say one.. then next msg say smoke now??
then is like.. in my heart i want to say.. directly..
"Hey i tot you told me.. you not smoking le"
then i think back i don`t want to say her 1st cause i know.. when she smoke mean she having bad mood.. then is like.. Put down my Anger.. and Face the matter she having now...
then... i try to call her.. and ASk.. or sms to ask.. feel better or something??some how there no reply at all.. then suddenly.. she sms back she Want to Drink i Am Totally.. STunn......STUNNNN...
Then is like.. i dunno what to do at that moment.. then i reply again.. then is like.. keep no reply no reply.. i Put this in my HEArt..
""i know now is 8pm and what time i going to be busy that is.. 9pm++
so got 1hour to settle.. so i put bold to myself tell Boss.. ""
"Boss Now Nothing to do Rite?"
Boss reply " Yeah "
" then at 9pm then got things to do right? "
Boss REply " Yeah "
" Boss i go out awhile.. i be BAck at 9pm. "
Boss REply " ok "
Rush Out Of the Room.. without Any thinking.. wat to do next.. rush out of the hotel..
then i was thinking taking cab ma.. then i think sure will have jam.. so i took MRT instead of CAb.. run all the way to mrt...
to TAke tRAin Over To bugis Find her. cause i really.. worry about.. her.. i dunno WAt HAppen..
and.. i Want to See Her sad and want to make sure she ok. not doing anything foolish..
then i Go Down to the train.. then i WAs waiting for the train i look at my watch is already 8.17pm then i think left.. how much min i left.is like i know.. is not enough cause i still no reply from her.. and don`t know where is she.. maybe need time to search for her too.. then finally.. the train is here..
then i like my mind stuck at that moment of time holding backs abit.. should i go and come back late... Should i not go and jus go back work..then is like i also standby a msg.. to send her..
" i can`t make i got to go back work then go find her "
Just before the train Door Close.. i slip in the door.... then like.. everyone looking at me.. at the door outside.. wondering what i doing.. is like wait till the door closing then i run in.. like one Crazy.. one...
but i dunno wat i thinking.. too.. i onli Think.. Money could EArn AGain.job can always find another new one.. But Cassey is only one.. i can`t find another.. one... other then her.. no one can replace her..
Just CAssey is enough...that reason why i Slip in the train in last min.. that.. the choice i make....
end up.. when i was the train.. just another sec i reach city hall mRT she suddenly sms.. and.. within 1sec she call me.. ask me.. where me.. why i coming...
then is like i keep explain.. why why why,,,,Cause i Worry..
and i dun want her to be upset..
that why..
then she .. somehow.. talk to me.. want me.. back to work.. then is no choice.. i have to go back.. cause i know.. if i insist she sure angry.. then is like.. haiz.z.ZZZ
then i just go back to work... then...
slowly.. time pass pass.. pass... then is like.. i dunno what to sms her too.. i know she sad... but.
dunno about wat then i decided to forcus on work 1st.. cause i think .. if she know.. i not Forcus.. for sure.. she will angry.. then is like... i put midn straight... faster end everything fast fast..
tehn is like.. finally.. done.. i was..thinking.. wat to reply her..then after i msg.. her.. she suddenly.. say she need sometime to be alone..
then at that moment.. i abit sad.. cause i think maybe due to her.. own problem... then i keep sms and call make her.. more confuse.. or what.. then is like.. ok ba..
then until.. reach home fast fast.. go bath.. then i was thinking thinking.. then out le.. online.. msg her.. wat she doing... usually she reply normal..
then is like i just msg her...
" You still chating with friend, then nvm don`t disturb you"
once that moment she say HAizz... then is.. like.. suddenly.. pop something in my mind..
NONO all Wrong.. i should not like That SAy.. i am Suppose to TAlk to her.. cause.. i suppose to supporting her.. not..
that why.. all wrong.. All WRong..
i Am REAlly Sorry.. i swear with my.. Life.. i won`t do that.. again...
i Won`t...
Forgive me MY Mistake.
i dunno if she notice.. this mistake.. but i want to be honest to it..
cause i know.. this is The Biggest mistake..
but.. i so happy i at least.. save it in time.. i really.. scare i will lose her..
but i am happy At Least she Happy AGain...
i want to do this...
i want to make sure...
i want to confirm..
CAuse..
all this.. Mean.. one.. thing..
I LOVE YOu.
SignOff
DExNg
i am sorry cassy i think today i did disappointed you abit.. instead i worry about you.. end up make you think is your fault... then is like.. worse.. still... i promise i will face the matter.. more.. properly.. make sure nothing Go Wrong..
i never Blame you for throwing your temper at me.. i already here stand infront of you.. hugging.. you..
No Matter how you Scold shout push kick punch.. i will never leave you..
But one Thing This PRove something..
CASsey is Someone. more Important.. then other thing..
and she not a thing... she is someone i love..
in my HEArtz..
CAssy,
i Am in Love With You,One And Only
DesmonD.H
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